Well I;m back at school and for now back on the livejournal.. I never really post here about my crazy life because theres rarely the time. But I was at my aunts computer killing a few munites before I leave for classes for the day and realized I really like her keyboard. I clicks a lot if you know what I mean, making it more fun than my laptop for sure. Arnold scwarzenegger (sp?) won the election in California...and that kinda makes me sad. I think Ronald Regan was an actor before being president, but we all saw how that went. So lets just hope that this never goes further than governor.

This weekend I was planning on going to Bend with Will (the man-friend) and karen. When I called Will to wake him up Friday morning at 11 he was sick, and and already called his fam' to cancel the trip. He asked me If we'd like to just stay with him and take it easy- It sounded a lot better than being at home, so I took him up on it. We went to a vietnamese restaraunt called pho van that night and it was awesome, I recommend it to all of you, its great. Will taught me how to drive a stick shift, and play pinochle. We watched Monty Python's meaning of life, and then ended up driving all over the place. It was an excellent weekend until I was going out to my car to load up my stuff this morning (really like two pm) and my car was gone. I guess i was parked in a resident space at his apartments, but I had no idea. It got towed about a half an hour before I was going to leave. I felt really dumb, but the towing sign was like at the end of the row of spaces on a shed, where i couldn't even see it, and Will hadn't said anything about where to park. We drove out to Beaverton where they had Claudia (my car) held up. Without my even saying anything, or like asking (which I wouldn't do), Will paid for it...and It was 210.00...he's my hero. If you're reading this sunshine- thankyou SO much again. I'm home now and I have a model for school that I need to get crackin' on, all that crazy interior design stuff you know.

For all of you who have not yet heard the story of betty- I will tell it in her memory because she finally died today. A while ago I bought two pet fish, betty and slick. About a week later I bought Gary (the guppy). Only two weeks after that both gary, and slick were dead, But betty lived on. I like fish- they amaze me really. After Gary and Slick came many other fish- Flip, Sylvia and Frank. All of these fish died, but betty lived on. I realized during the less than twenty four hour life of my most recent fish Frank, that Betty was actually murdering the other fish, by biting them to death. She was Satan and was doomed to live alone. But for some reason I couldn't just flush this fish alive, so I took to hate and neglect...a YEAR later, after very little feeding and many glares in her direction betty died in the night. It may have been that she was hungry, or accidentally impaled herself on the tack that fell into her bowl a week ago that I didn;t take out..Either way, she didn't even float, she's so evil- she sank like a rock. Today Will and I went to Pet-co to celebrate the passing of the beast by buying a new goldfish- One that I like. It cost 22 cents and I can't decide whether I should name it "uno" because numbering my fish would be easier to keep track of since I kill so many, or "Wednesday"...since, well, today is wednesday.

Finally found a beer that I like- I'm glad that I stuck with it. I've been earnestly tring to like beer for the past months and james brought over guiness draught tonight, I love it. Thankyou James, no thankyou Ireland.

This week has been interesting to say the least. I told you about Will last time I posted, he is my boyfriend now- he makes me happy. I have mid terms this week = yuck, but I took my dad to the train station this morning to go to seattle to spend two weeks there with my mom = good times. he's such an ass though- he left big notes hanging all over the house that say stuff like "lock the doors" and "turn off the stove" I have no Idea why he still thinks I'm nine years old, but he is a main cause of my dire want to move out. I have to do a physics project which involves protecting a raw egg from a 20 foot drop with a device no bigger than 6"x6"x8"....I have some ideas, but any input would be appreciated. You get extra points for creativity- I'm gonna start testing the wilder ideas on wednesday, so if you stop by and I'm throwing a grapefruit with an egg duct taped inside off of my roof, don't be alarmed. In other news, I hate my job with a passion, When I think of working there full time so I can move out I cringe, I can't stand being there, or the work I do. I don't believe that its big headed to say I'm better thatn McDonald's. When you speak english and You're the minority that's telling you something, ugh. Enough of that ranting though. I'm earnestly trying to get a new job, I can't wait. I don't know what else to say, now that I've got myself all steamed about my job. I have my physics mid-term tommorow, I think I'll study 'till I fall asleep- goodnight.

I know I haven't updated in way too long... I don't think i've even posted about my first experience with tequila. We can just say my magic number is seven, and I fell asleep behind the recliner, and under the by the kitchen table. Plans are still good for moving in with James- My dad is home form California and i can't stand him more than ever. I've met someone new.. His name is Will, and he's a really cool guy- we've been on a couple od dates, and I hope to see a lot more of him, so you'll probably hear more about that. Last night I went to a formal type dance on a boat called the Portland Spirit, and it was great. We went to denny's and had breakfast food for dinner, and I had a really great time at the dance. Afterwords we went to this place called "Banning's 24 hour pie house" in Tigard. This is the coolest thing I have seen in a long time- All sorts of pie, twenty-four hours a day, so that was cool. After that we (myself, Karen and Will) went to will's and watched High Fidelity to which i fell asleep momentarily, and was woken up, and I stayed awake until six thirty this morning. It was so fun. Didn't do anything today, have much homework to do tomorow because i had so much fun this weekend- but it was worth it.

Date:	2003-04-13 21:09
Subject:	Laptop + H2O = BAD DAY
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	Pussy control by prince... don't ask

The last couple of days have been not as good as they could be. Its like every good event is followed by a bad one. I went shopping at a thrift storw and found some funny new t-shirts, only to find when I got out of the thrift store my keys were locked in my car. I went and saw the play at karen's school, it was great, and funny, but after the play we went to a party that was LAME. When we got there at ten everyone was really drunk and there were a bunch of high school kids, like freshmen and sophmores, and they we're being SO loud. It was just dumb. But by that time we (Karen, Luke and I...) had no where to go, so we wnt to java bay for a while, and then we went to Karen's house around two. I had enough to drink to remember everything, but feel pretty dang good, and Karen got REALLY sloshed. Luke hardly drank. Luke and Karen got pretty friendly, and around four I went upstairs and slept in Karen's bed. It just wasn't very fun. I went to church this morning- and that was great- I had an awesome time, and I love the people there and the message was good, left feeling happy. I went home and my dog jumped in my lap while I was at my laptop- It isn't working.... James came over and disassebled it for me so it could dry out. I don't think I'm going to be able to keep my dog, I love my dog a lot, she's great, but I don't have time, and when I move out, I'll not be able to keep her at an apartment. Did I say I was moving out? Next quarter I'm going to go less to school and more to work and get out of my home, It will be good. I'd like to move in with James. My awesome friend Megan called me from California tonight and she might be coming home to live here again, that would be SO awesome, she could be a possible room mate too, but Nothing is for sure right now, hopefully it'll all work out. That's all for now I guess, I'm over at David's house, it's relaxing, thanks David-

This week is the first week of my spring quarter... So far so good, this is gonna be the quarter of the sleep, no classes before 12:45 in the afternoon. My physics teacher is a nut; for those of you who went to Gresham high he's like Mr. Lakey mach II. We studied the rotation of the earth and the sun, and I got to be the sun, he also gave an hour long lecture on problem solving and used a rather large collection of neckties to illustrate. Last night I had my first entire beer! Go me. I can't even stand the smell of beer, but I'm really trying to give it a shot. I can take a straight shot of anything you put in frount of me with no problem, but for some reason I can't handle beer. Either way, i finished it and I'm gonna keep trying... If the next few beers are that bad I;m gonna give up though. Tonight I had a great time with James. We ended up just driving around and talking and laughing so much. i don't know if he was just tired beyond recognition and that made him laugh, but I know james had it tough, and it makes me really happy to see him having a good time. I think I'll take the max to school tommorow, then I'll probably have something funny to write about. Later.

I really want to start using this thing again. Now that I'm becoming more and more of a computer geek all the time, and ridiculous stuff always tends to happen to me, it is only right for me to do so. My dad is still out of town, which if you don't know yet is a GREAT thing, he's pretty much a jerk to me. He was gonna come home on the tenth
now its the 21st..yay. I started classes this week, yesterday really, this is gonna be a good quarter, no classes before 12:45 in the afternoon, why didn't I think of this sooner? Last night somebody pranked my car. It was actually pretty funny- I have no hard feelings. They put a bunch of those orange road cones all around my car, and on the hood. And there was this big sandwich board type home for same sign on top of my car. I took a couple of pictures, so I'll try and put that up eventually. This morning at work there we're also cones in the drive thru lane, good times :) I wish people would mess with my McDonald's I think its great.

yes, it works.
Now I guess I can move on. I'm having a good week, and a great life right now.I have a lot to do so I've just been rushing from place to place getting everything done. My project hours are on their way, and I'm getting good grades, so I have little stress form school. Most of what gets to me comes straight out of me own house. I know I'll be 18 soon and all that, and I'm sure I could be more responsible about housework, but I do a pretty good job, and I don't complain about helping, but my mom takes it really heavily, and the other day she said "I used to think really highly of you, but I don't trust you anymore" Ouch. So I guess I'll just deal with it, but my mom has always been there for me, and I really have always gotten along with her so well, and as you probably all know my dad is pretty much a jerk, so we've never gotten along. I'm happy that I have james as a friend in the house, because my mom has been getting kinda weird towards me. Grades will come soon, I did good, I'll get a pat on the back and that will make me feel special, I guess I really do thrive for positive attention. Compared to many, i have nothing to whine about, I have a great life and I'm thankful for what I do have. I just hope things get smoother

is my livejournal working?

Well, I haven't posted in forever, but I'm always reading eveyone else's post. I had a great night last night. It was Rick's birthday party last night. I went over around four thirty yesterday. At first we watched a pretty dumb movie called anaconda. It was semi gross, but pretty much a B movie. We had dinner, and cake, and Rick opened presents, a lot of people got clothes for him, he was happy. After the party diesdown and everyone started to go home, Dorie (rick's mom) invited me to stay the night. My mom and I totally expected it, so I already had permission. My friend Erik was still there, and so was Rick's best friend, Scott. We went and rented a movie, I can't even remember the name of it, but it had Meg ryan, and it had something to do with these guys who kidnap people in the jngle. I don't remember much because I was asleep for the most part of it.After the movie Erik left, and Rick and Scott went upstairs to sleep. Kelly (rick's sister) slept on the other couch in the living room. She always wants to talk to me when I am trying to go to sleep. And it was three AM, and she wouldn't shut up, so I just pretended that I was asleep, and she stopped talking, then I could actuall get some sleep. You know those nights where its like you blink your eyes and all of the sudden its morning? It was one of those. I was awakened by the thud of rick' footsteps at 6:45. He ran and dived over the couch and gave me a hug. That is a great way to wake up. We stayed there for a while, then I made breakfast for him and Scott and I, and we took it upstairs to his room and woke scott up and we all had breakfast. Rick's dad took me home and here I am. I think I'll take a nap today. I'm happy.

Date:	2001-08-28 15:14
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Mood:	artistic

Today was rather uneventful. I went to a CC officer's meeting at noon, and we talked about some stuff that's gonna be going on this year. I'm exctited for all the things that are gonna be happening. We will probably be going to san francisco, or sandiego. I wanted to go to Hawaii with the band, but Doc says there wont be enough venues for us to sing at :( That's okay, any trip will be fun. Things are moving forward on getting the choir room painted. Doc is actually gonna talk to people about it so it can happen. I just need to work on getting a team of people together to work on it. I'm happy that I might be able to actually make this thing happen when so many people have tried and not been able to. I want to see Rick, but his parents aren't cooperating. We are gonna go to Saturday market this saturday with James, and that will be cool, but I hate it when I have to wait a week between each time I see him. I love him though, and he's worth all the crap we deal with from his family. I'm happy to have him, he's great. I don't really have much else to say, Tonight I'm gonna go hang out with James at the cafe, then maybe at his office, yeah! Oh yeah, today I did paint this old office chair I ofund in an apartment that I cleaned silver. It will be cool.

I haven't written for a long time. Sorry. I went to camp last week, and I had a great time. I met a lot of great people, and learned some awesome stuff. Yesterday I went to work, and Kristen and Rick came with me, The apartment is so nasty we didn't sinish, I have to go back on Friday, ugh. My job is so yucky, but I like the pay so I'll stop complaining. I htink today Scott is going to come over and hang out, and I'll bake some cookies. I saw James last night and we talked for a bit, that was cool. I think I'll come into the office and hang out soon. As for now, I'm gonna go have breakfast.

Date:	2001-07-31 11:52
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Mood:	cheerful

I haven't posted in way too long. Every time I try, It's down, so I give up for the day. Here I am though. I've been having a good week. I get to go out on a date with rick tommorow night,. this will be the first date that we have gone on in a year :) I'm so excited. We're just gonna get dinner, and go to a double feature at Mt. Hood. I don't even know what the movies that are playing are about, and I don't care, I just want to spend time with Rick. I worked yesterday, which sucked, it always sucks, but it pays well enough that I don't care. It will all pay off, because I get to start driving tommorow. I am going to make an appointment for my senior pictures this week. I know I've put it off for a real long time, but I don't care, I'll be fine. I'm excited to do all this senior stuff, but I'm also scared for next year, and all the stuff I need to do to graduate. I'm not really nervous about what I'm gonna do after high school. I'm happy for that. It's just that I had a great plan for my senior project, and it all fell through when my cousin got a new job. I was going to work with her teaching an rt class at her school. I might still do that, Its just going to be odd because I don't know anyone there. Oh well. I'm having a good week so far. I want to go hang out with James one of these days here, probably friday is the first time I'll be free.

Date:	2001-07-25 19:25
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Mood:	amused
Music:	umm, whateve jonas is playing, I dunno

hello
I am at James' work. I am having a good time having my dinner from Arby's and not being at home. I miss Richard, but I do get to see him on Sunday. All is good.

Date:	2001-07-25 13:44
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Mood:	artistic
Music:	raze- ALways and forever

hello. Well, I called and cancelled work today, I'm tired of working, for this week anyway. I've just been worn out lately. I might go with James to work today, I'm not sure yet. I'm in one of those moods where I'm bored, but I don't feel like doing anything. So I'm useless. I don't even feel like baking. HHMMMMM. That's really weird. I miss Richard, but I think things are gonna work out okay with his mom and stuff. Maybe I'll do some artwork. That sounds fun, but not too hard.

Date:	2001-07-24 21:26
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Mood:	calm
Music:	BNL light up my room

well, hello. I had apretty uneventful day. I went to work in the morning, and I got done arounf two, and had lunch. I made brownies for James today, and I wen't and helped my cousin Becky paint her bathroom. Last night I got to hang out with rick. It was good. I love to see him. We went over to his friend Johnathan's house to watch a movie. We watched "Snatch" ti was alright, but there was way too much language, it made the dialog sound stupid. Tommorow James is taking me to a doctor's appointment, and then I have to go to work again. I'm really bored right now, I wish I could go see my brother.

Date:	2001-07-23 09:46
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Mood:	hopeful
Music:	mom typing in the background

It's morning, and Ihaven't done much more than have a cup of coffee. I'm going to work here pretty soon, I don't neccesarily like the kind of work I do, but when weighed against the number of hours I work, and the amount I get paid, I like my job. Pretty soon I will be driving agsin because this is a job I can easily handle the hours of during school, and still make enough money to drive. I'm so excited. I'll write more later, when I've had mre happen. Oh, if you're rick, and you're reading this, do you think you'll be doing something tonight? Page me, 920-8985

Date:	2001-07-22 14:01
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Mood:	artistic
Music:	the buzz of the computer fan

Happy Sunday All. I'm having a relatively good day. I haven't heard from Rick yet, he's going to the gorge with is mom today. Hopefully they can come to some agreement about our relationship. One like, we can have one. She has said all along that she thinks I'm too old for him, and that he shouldn't date until he's eighteen, or he shouldn't even think about this kind of thing until he's going to get married. But then she says he can go out with me, and a few weeks later, she says the same reasons, and says he can't go out with me. It's been happening this way for over a year now. I'm used to it, is that sad? In other news I sang a solo at church this morning and it went well. Then I went out to Sunny Hans with my aunt and Uncle, they're always really nice to me, but they tend to be biased toward Christian people. Sometimes the way they act annoys me. I cleaned my room yesterday, and I bought a new rug, it looks good. I'd like for everyone to come over some night and just hang out here with James and I. We've never had mutual friends, but I like it. I really appreciate my brother, and the fact that he's been so nice to me this summer. Since he got out of High school, he's been totally awesome, and I'm glad. I curled my hair this morning, and it looked really good, I haven't tried to do that since I got it cut, and I like it, I think I will do it often now. My only other plans for today are to hang out in my hammock in my room and read or sleep. I love my hammock. Bye.